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Not good at goodbyes.

When the thought of somebody far away keeps you awake at night and tears come out of your eyes, dripping, and touching your cheek. 
You feel uneasy. 
Your chest feels heavy. 
You suddenly feel indescribably sad all you wanna do is read messages and quotes.
The idea to let it all out as the memories flashing back on your mind sounds relaxing except there are no shoulders to cry on. 
Quotes about longing, you found none
You waste your time tryna find relatable quotes forgetting the reason why people themselves posted on the internet in the first place. 

Dear self, what they felt was different and new. 
Nothing like the internet.  
Their ability to fathom their feelings into words is admirable.
Take your turn. 
Let them hear your stories and let your words speak for those who go through the same situation. 

My story is that I miss somebody, my friends and a city. 
  to be continued

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