Soothing Kalimaat

  Pasir Putih Situbondo   © soothingayat.blogspot.com                         Boy did it ever occur to me  to miss certain people on the same day I bid farewell. Pathetic, I'd call it.  Ever been so close with people yet not close enough to tell one another you miss them without feeling hopeless? The feelings of hopelessness, pathetic, and loneliness aren't what anybody wants to be attributed with.  Why? Because we're afraid this longing is unrequited. We're scared of being taken advantage of. We're that much of a soft-hearted coward at expressing our feelings truthfully.  And people can be that big headed, insensitive, and heartless towards love and kindness.  Cut it some slack, love doesn't always mean in a I-want-to-be-in-a-relationship kinda way.

When the thought of somebody far away keeps you awake at night and tears come out of your eyes, dripping, and touching your cheek.  You feel uneasy.  Your chest feels heavy.  You suddenly feel indescribably sad all you wanna do is read messages and quotes. The idea to let it all out as the memories flashing back on your mind sounds relaxing except there are no shoulders to cry on.  Quotes about longing, you found none .  You waste your time tryna find relatable quotes forgetting the reason why people themselves posted on the internet in the first place.  Dear self, what they felt was different and new.  Nothing like the internet.   Their ability to fathom their feelings into words is admirable. Take your turn.  Let them hear your stories and let your words speak for those who go through the same situation.  My story is that I miss somebody, my friends and a city.    to be continued

She's that girl who needs to stay close to nature in order to feel genuinely at peace. Sitting in a place where she can touch the rain without her body being wet; Hearing the tapping sound of rain; Smelling a fresh earth smell when it's done; And seeing it pouring down, one after another or all at once: these make her feel somehow connected. She never realised she was missing something 'til rain came. Alive, she feels .

At the end of the day it's Allah and you all you have There comes times when you feel left out Forgotten Unimportant But  you should not buy it . Try not to. If need be, don't tell those people what you're up to Don't share anything personal with them So when they feel dumbfounded when you shut up, let them be. It sucks being asked for some opinions but then not being taken into consideration. How is it possible to feel used but at the same time useless. You're overeating again But it's okay for now. I guess slowly distract your mind by taking up your hobby. Go for a walk by yourself today. Go read some books. Spread kindness. Make your parents proud. There comes days when you try making people happy Yet you forget your own. You feel lost You knew you should've had chosen Him over anything. You feel no matter how hard you try It won't be enough. You start doubting your self-worth You build self-loathing. Although your strug...

In this world There are people who aren't allowed to go to a guided islamic lecture But is encouraged when it comes to going to a mall. Everything is about food. Eating. Eating. And eating. There are people who seem to be avoiding you Because of your mistakes. So you try to fix them And distance yourself Slowly Slowly Slowly, they make you feel worthless. There are people who make promises. And break 'em. 'Til one day you get tired. Tired of hearing promises. So you distance yourself Farther Farther And farther. 'Til you feel alone. 'Til you feel lonely. You stop making promises with them. You give up. You try to watch out Not wanting to fall into more of their prey. Because it saddens you. It saddens you how pathetic they make you feel. You know, giving you hopes Making you smile Making you excited And when you've packed up your things Prepared this Prepared that Everything's sorted You think your whole week is made ...

That's our problem For falling too easily For limiting the possibilities For thinking we don't deserve the best. That's our problem Due to not knowing self worth Or lacking self love Or not knowing we have so much to offer. Yeah, that's our problem For easily accepting somebody, afraid nobody else would replace him. Afraid of being alone. That's our problem.

Communication is key. Meet up and talk. Pay attention to the state of your friend. Notice if there is any warning sign. Are they grumpy? Are they being unreasonably quiet? Not being their usual self? Not excited? Lousy? Why? Have they been like this or is it because you're seeing them after a long time of not being bothered to keep in touch? Is there a possibility of a toxic friendship between you? What's up? Do they have a personal problem which they'd be uncomfortable talking about? All in all,  give them space and don't push. Just kindly tell them what you see and feel. And listen... No more negative thoughts No more what-if's Because misinterpreting a situation is what makes you feel distant Especially when all you see is what happens online; not in real person Like their posts about broken friendship that did not turn out to be about yours and theirs. So, make time to catch up with them. Listen. Talk. It will clear up all the doubts a...

I live in a country where people take promises lightly, forgetting that the Prophet  ﷺ    has said one of four characteristics of a hypocrite is breaking promises. We may have come across this hadeeth but sadly, we didn't observe. Some of us may think it's got to be the most serious matter. It doesn't apply to simpler ones. So, they belittle their 'not-so-important' promises. Little do they know every small matter regarding the deen, matters. You said you were coming at nine but it's now almost ten. You said it'd be on Friday but you broke your promise asking for the next day. The next day you ask, "What about the night, instead?" And this never doesn't happens. No matter who you are whether it be you're their closest friends or family, they're bothered. If you can't come at 9, why say so? If you can't meet your promise, why promised? Be real. Be realistic. Say in shaa Allah not but not because you don't wanna say no but...

It's unbelievable the state of the Youth. People making fun of Islam. Muslims.  Others join in without even thinking the consequences they will have to face on the Day of Judgment. I can tell that they don't know what they are saying but that doesn't cover up for them the fact that they have to make time to study their own religion. The basic. The foundation is for everyone to revise every now and then in order to strengthen their eeman . Eventually, our circle of friends gets smaller. It saddens me seeing how some people behave. They speak as if what the ulama do only applies to the ulama and those who follow. As if saying " My ustadz  does not forbid us. Maybe it's just your ulama's 'opinion', thus, for your people only. So 'respect the differences'." And another goes, "Preach to those who wanna be preached. Not here. " Subhanallah. It's painful to see your friends go from a practicing Muslim to a what they call moder...

Dulu, aku tidak pernah mengerti mengapa seseorang memilih untuk tidak menjelaskan sesuatu dan rela mempertaruhkan harga dirinya padahal satu penjelasan saja akan membungkam mulut-mulut usil mereka. Namun sekarang aku mengerti, tidak semua hal membutuhkan penjelasan dan tidak semua orang berhak mendapatkan penjelasan. It used to baffle me how somebody would rather have their dignity at stake than to explain when all it takes is one explanation to clear rumours up. But now I understand, not everything has to be explained and not everybody is worthy of an explanation.

Have you ever been in a situation where you're just indecisive because you don't want to regret that decision which you're about to make? I have, well, every time I have to make a decision, to be honest, and it's stressing me out. But sometimes I realise that making mistakes is inevitable. Sometimes you just have to be a risk taker. Although, you really need to think it thoroughly first and foremost. I'm just gonna talk about this thing in my case recently (I'll try to generalise it as best as I could). From my case, I now can say that if there's something no longer making you happy, you know you can stop being part of it/doing it/being it/etc WHENEVER you want. Even if you know that you will get judged with negative comments such us your decision is wrong, stupid, and or you'll regret it. They can also hold you back from making a change by saying less harmful words such as, "Why would you  give it up? Don't! You  are really good at it!...