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For those who think there's no point in defending themselves

How do you deal with being called nervous when you're not
How do you know when to stop defending yourself
How do you make them listen without interrupting
How do you hold back tears
How do you educate people that what you feel is there.

How would you feel if you knew my story
How would you feel if i told you you're draining my energy
And that you're the reason i go back to that dark place.
My thoughts.

Being called nervous when you're not can be very offensive to somebody especially when they have been battling an emotional rollercoaster.
But what is worse is you stand up for yourself but they think you're just making excuses.
This may not matter to many but knowing what I've been through, i hate anything that triggers my pain.
My feelings matter.
They're valid.
I am calm.
If I seem tense, it's just me.
Every day i try to be a better version of myself.
I try to get rid of this bad gesture but thanks to you now I know I'm failing
And thank you, for giving me that extra push to just give up on being human already.
But I'll keep bettering myself.
This time i accept myself and every mistake i may make as I go.

I forgive me.

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