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Promises aren't light.

In this world
There are people who aren't allowed to go to a guided islamic lecture
But is encouraged when it comes to going to a mall.
Everything is about food.
Eating.
Eating.
And eating.

There are people who seem to be avoiding you
Because of your mistakes.
So you try to fix them
And distance yourself
Slowly
Slowly
Slowly, they make you feel worthless.

There are people who make promises.
And break 'em.
'Til one day you get tired.
Tired of hearing promises.
So you distance yourself
Farther
Farther
And farther.
'Til you feel alone.
'Til you feel lonely.

You stop making promises with them.
You give up.
You try to watch out
Not wanting to fall into more of their prey.
Because it saddens you.
It saddens you how pathetic they make you feel.
You know, giving you hopes
Making you smile
Making you excited
And when you've packed up your things
Prepared this
Prepared that
Everything's sorted
You think your whole week is made
'Til a day or two before DDay.

"I'm sorry I have this thing to be in."
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